Well, I did it. I talked to my oldest son yesterday.
That may sound funny to "normal" people, but we are anything but normal.
Let's start near the beginning. I was married in January 1968. In November 1968, John was born. In August 1969, Jeremy was born. I had Post Pardum Depression after the younger son was born. Back then no one knew what it was. Anyway, I got divorce in 1971,and just couldn't cope with being a single parent.
My aunt could see that I needed help. So they took the boys. I went into the Marine Corps.
When I came home I would go up and see the boys every chance I got. When they were about 8 my aunt told me that the counselor had told her that it would be better if I didn't go to see them any more. So I cried all the way home and never went up to their home again.
About 19 years ago, John came by to see me and wanted to borrow money. I gave him $20 dollars and told him that I just didn't have any more. I hadn't seen him since.
After 9/11/2001, Jeremy called me and we got reacquainted. It has been very nice. He calls about once a week.
For 19 years I haven't seen or heard from John. Until Jeremy called Sunday and told me the John wanted me to call him.
I called him yesterday. It was nice to hear him.
I used to cry every time I had to leave my aunt house. And every year I have cried through their birthdays. After Jeremy came back into my life I stopped crying through his birthday, because I can talk to him. Now maybe I'll stop crying through John's birthday.
I have always loved them. They just didn't know it.
It's snowing here this morning. Welcome to Springtime in the Rockies.
I went to lunch with Marie yesterday. I enjoy seeing her. She's thinking about morving to Arizona. I'll sure miss her if she does.
Fatima came by yesterday to ask if I would help her with her crochet. I handed her a hook and some yarn. We talked and crocheted for more then an hour.
I have so much in my life to be thankfulfor for. I am a very lucky person. I have my health, people I love and who love me. And a house full of wonderful things.
Whatever you focus on, you will experience.